Friendship

After an unfortunate and strange exchange of words between a friend and myself I am left to ponder what I should expect from a person who calls their self a friend. I had a friend that decided to jump on me about something that happened 3 months earlier. Her husband is a Mason and asked if I would consider catering for the 100th year celebration. I said yes. My friend and her husband took me shopping for everything I needed since the Lodge was paying for everything. I also made a decorated cake that would feed 200 people. I take it very seriously when I am asked to work for someone and I give my all, or I feel that I do. I had 2 kids with the flu at home and I had stayed up to 4 in the morning finishing all of the food for the party. I was very excited and pumped. This is what I love. Well, when we start the service this friend is helping me with everything. I thought things went well and continued to think so for 3 months, until one day I had to ask her if I had done something to make her mad, because she had been acting a little strange lately. Boy, did that open a door for her to just rattle off a list of things that I had done wrong, number 1 being that I made her feel stupid at the catering gig. She says that anytime she tried to do anything I came and took over like she were stupid and unable to do anything. My thoughts are why in the world would you not have said something then to me. I had no clue that I was stepping on toes. I just thought it was my responsiblity, and did not want to make her feel as tho she was doing everything. So, I am bawling on the phone as she is rattling off everything, and she informs me that I have quit calling and coming over as much. I am so sorry, but I have just moved into a new house and I love my house. I like staying here and doing things that need to be taken care of here. Also, the last time I checked the phone worked both ways and so do the roads. Anyway, I continued to cry my eyes out while she just sat there stone cold. Never once sounded upset. All she did say is Oh, I'm sorry I made you cry, and are we still friends? I didn't want to start anything else, so I said okay knowing that I would never feel the same about her again. Anytime she picks up the phone to call me is when she needs me to sew something or borrow something. She never calls just to call or drop by just to say hey. Oh, and she did not let me know any of this until after I have sewn, embroidered and helped make all of the Christmas presents she was giving family and friends. And now when she sees me she is just smiles like nothing was ever said or done, but I am still angry and upset about everything. I don't feel as tho I can trust her anymore. I thought friends were able to tell each other the things that are bothering them. I have other friends and our friendships are open and honest. I guess the reason I am writing this is to vent. And to say how angry I am that I fell into this trap. Looking back now I should have known this would happen. She bad mouthed everyone including family. That is the reason I do not want to talk to her, because I know she is saying things behind my back and I just can't face anyone that can behave in this manner.

That is the end of my rant. Thanks for listening. I will try to be more upbeat next time.