Christmas 2007

For those of you that I did not get a Christmas card to I apologize. This is the picture we decided to use and honestly I did everything so last minute that I'm suprised anyone got a card. Just when I was about to give up on the Christmas card picture and put down the camera, because the girls were not cooperating, BAM a perfect picture. That is what I get for trying to pose them. I should always just let them do whatever comes natural to them, and if you can't tell by the picture Claire was not in the least bit happy that Madeline decided to lay her head in her lap. :)

Anyway, enough about the Christmas card. I just wanted to say that this years Christmas had its great times and it's not so great times. The not so great times are due to my OCD and trying to make everything perfect and everyone happy. (Note to self: You can't make everyone happy. It's impossible.) I don't want to go into all of the stuff that went wrong and all of the crying I did, because as I sat here today I realized just how blessed this family is. We have way more than most. I am blessed to have my two beautiful healthy little girls, a loving husband (even tho I could kill him sometimes :)), a wonderful home, two cars that work, and being able to finish my education starting in January. I look at all of the things we received for Christmas and can't help but feel a bit guilty seeing as how we have more than most. I am not saying we are wealthy and don't live pay check to pay check. I mean we are wealthy in our health and happiness. I just feel guilty in getting all of the latest and greatest gadgets. The gadgets I received this year were an iphone, ishuffle, and a programmable crock pot. Michael's gadgets consist of an iphone, ipod, and an XBox 360. The girls gadget is the Nintendo Wii. I guess living with a husband whose work is computers and things this should be normal in this house. I just feel a wee bit of guilt.

I am happy that the girls got the Wii, because believe it or not it is teaching them a valuable lesson in being good sports. I didn't realize what sore loosers they were. They are getting better about saying, "It's okay, good game." So maybe this will be a good thing for them. They also got a whole mess of Webkinz. For those of you that don't know what a Webkin is, it is a stuffed animal you buy that comes with a secret passcode so you can play with your animal on the computer. It really is a very cute idea and the girls love taking care of them. We have their Mamaw to thank for the Webkinz. Their Granny and Pappy got them the cutest cash registers that actually work. They also sent them money to practice with the cash register. It is a great learning tool on how we have to pay for our groceries and such, and also teaches them about how to pay and receive cash back. They love it. From Grandaddy and Ms. Steph they received a whole bunch of clothes and a swing set. Which is awesome! We needed an outside toy. Last but not least from Santa they received a bunch of baby doll stuff and Barbie stuff. So I guess you can say that my children racked up this year. I hope they don't expect this every year. ;)

I could go on and on about our Christmas, but I will not bore you with all of the other little things.

I will be posting another blog some time soon about me furthering my education for those of you that don't know what I am talking about.

I love you all and hope that you had a blessed Christmas like we did this year. God has been smiling down on us lately.

I knew it!

When I started this blog back in January something told me I would not update enough.
I promise I will get better, but for now here is a cute picture of the girls dancing in the living room. (please don't mind the clothes in the background, it was laundry day)

Mommy and Madeline Day

This past Saturday Madeline had a day out together. I felt she needed a little one on one time after she broke down in tears saying, "You and Claire get to stay home together and do fun stuff while I have to go to school. We never get to do things together, just you and me."

Our day started out with lunch at Applebee's, yum! We then went shopping at Bath and Body Works. After all of that we decided to go to the movies and see Charlotte's Web. The movie was great and Madeline really enjoyed it too. I looked over at one point during the movie and saw a tear in Madeline's eye. After the movie she asked me,"Mommy, did you think the movie was sad?" I said,"Yes, did you cry too?" And she immediately replied, "NO!" I began to wonder, when did she start thinking that crying because something truly makes you sad was wrong.

Later that night when Michael was tucking her in bed she started to ask questions about death. One of the questions she had was, "When I die will God give me new parents or will he remake you?" I am not sure what Michael's reply was, but he did say, " Maybe we shouldn't have let her see that movie."

Our next Mommy and Madeline day has already been planned. She has stated that she wants us to get our nails, hair and make-up done. She is growing up way too fast.

Friendship

After an unfortunate and strange exchange of words between a friend and myself I am left to ponder what I should expect from a person who calls their self a friend. I had a friend that decided to jump on me about something that happened 3 months earlier. Her husband is a Mason and asked if I would consider catering for the 100th year celebration. I said yes. My friend and her husband took me shopping for everything I needed since the Lodge was paying for everything. I also made a decorated cake that would feed 200 people. I take it very seriously when I am asked to work for someone and I give my all, or I feel that I do. I had 2 kids with the flu at home and I had stayed up to 4 in the morning finishing all of the food for the party. I was very excited and pumped. This is what I love. Well, when we start the service this friend is helping me with everything. I thought things went well and continued to think so for 3 months, until one day I had to ask her if I had done something to make her mad, because she had been acting a little strange lately. Boy, did that open a door for her to just rattle off a list of things that I had done wrong, number 1 being that I made her feel stupid at the catering gig. She says that anytime she tried to do anything I came and took over like she were stupid and unable to do anything. My thoughts are why in the world would you not have said something then to me. I had no clue that I was stepping on toes. I just thought it was my responsiblity, and did not want to make her feel as tho she was doing everything. So, I am bawling on the phone as she is rattling off everything, and she informs me that I have quit calling and coming over as much. I am so sorry, but I have just moved into a new house and I love my house. I like staying here and doing things that need to be taken care of here. Also, the last time I checked the phone worked both ways and so do the roads. Anyway, I continued to cry my eyes out while she just sat there stone cold. Never once sounded upset. All she did say is Oh, I'm sorry I made you cry, and are we still friends? I didn't want to start anything else, so I said okay knowing that I would never feel the same about her again. Anytime she picks up the phone to call me is when she needs me to sew something or borrow something. She never calls just to call or drop by just to say hey. Oh, and she did not let me know any of this until after I have sewn, embroidered and helped make all of the Christmas presents she was giving family and friends. And now when she sees me she is just smiles like nothing was ever said or done, but I am still angry and upset about everything. I don't feel as tho I can trust her anymore. I thought friends were able to tell each other the things that are bothering them. I have other friends and our friendships are open and honest. I guess the reason I am writing this is to vent. And to say how angry I am that I fell into this trap. Looking back now I should have known this would happen. She bad mouthed everyone including family. That is the reason I do not want to talk to her, because I know she is saying things behind my back and I just can't face anyone that can behave in this manner.

That is the end of my rant. Thanks for listening. I will try to be more upbeat next time.

I'm Here

Well, hello everybody! I have finally decided to join the world of bloggers. This is all very new to me, so please be kind. I don't always have a whole lot to say, but when I do I will make sure to share it on here. Thanks and welcome to my little corner of the web.